I have not posted to this blog in years. A combination of factors complicated my ability to gain access, but I cannot deny that the true cause is my tendency to procrastinate due to my compulsion to make things perfect. My underlying fear: that my expressive writing skills have declined from lack of practice.
It is true that my closet webserver, that formerly hosted this blog, grew so old that it could not be upgraded without a full wipe. It is true that I needed to be able to backup–and be confident that I could restore–the database and files before attempting any software upgrades. Without a backup/restoration protocol in place, potential new posts ran the risk of being lost. It is also true that the deadlines of my past job were so demanding that the last thing I wanted to do after meeting them was spend more time in front of a computer monitor attempting to draft coherent thoughts. Lastly, it is true that I have gotten out of the habit of reflecting on events in my life that would make for interesting blog posts.
Well, I want this to change. I miss journaling and I see now that the process of recording events required careful reflection. The act of reflecting often enhanced my appreciation of life. Of course, I would like this enhanced appreciation to resume.
So, I moved this blog to a dedicated cloud host where I no longer assume the burden of hardware upgrades so that I can maintain the support software (e.g. MySQL, PHP, Apache, WordPress) more easily with less risk. I’ve setup automated backup to a different cloud provider and verified my ability to perform a restoration if need be. And most significantly, I’m in between jobs right now with the intention of getting my life back in order on my terms; blogging is one of them.
Now that I am well-positioned to blog, I declare here that I will write and post at least three posts a week–no matter how mundane the subject–to get “back in the habit” of reflecting on life events by writing about them. Previous obstacles that have contributed to my procrastination are now gone. Here, I make a commitment to getting back in the practice, so I can hold myself accountable without excuses to hide behind.

