Things are going very ok… I really can’t complain. I survived a rather harrowing last quarter. I gave a rotation talk went better than expected and I think I earned some respect from those whom I respect – which is always a good feeling. The systems neuroscience class that I’m taking this quarter is lightyears more coherent to me than the barrage of molecular biology that I was forced to confront in the fall. The list goes on. The short of it is, I should be happy with the progress I’ve made, and equally so, I should be happy with my scholastic situation as it presently stands…
So why do I feel SO EMPTY these days? I don’t really feel much of anything. I don’t enjoy music the way I used to and I seemed to have lost my comical view of things. It’s as though I’ve desensitized my capacity to feel to such an extent, as a means to get through hard times, that I can no longer detect the joy I should experience during good times.
I need to pay more attention to my own wants. Grad school be damned.
2 replies on “Serious Case of: “The Blahs””
Sounds like you need to take a break, recharge your batteries. For me, a hike in the woods would do it. Perhaps a day of rockin out with your cock out for you?
methinks I’ll be calling you on my way home sometime this week. yes, an hour drive makes for phone calls during the easy parts.